To where i am right now

was stoning infront of my com and started having flashbacks as my 'nice and emo' playlist played

u just wonder how things would be if this or that did not happen, or if i woulda done this or that, just like no football match has a fixed conclusion until the final whistle is blown. but what are the chances of coming back from 4-0 in the 90th min? virtually impossible.

at least i was once in first place. at least there are those memories to live upon. at least it was once mattered. at least i was once, significant.

i blend into the crowd
cause theres no more reason to stand out