Faith?

i rarely get really angry but now im angry twice in less than a week

this time its at myself. i should be kicking myself, for i almost forgot how to be optimistic. that cannot be.. even with all these, there shld still be an abundance of optimism in me. there is hope, more than enough hope. that in the end it will all go well. there was glimmer, i was acknowledged, but still its confusing.

我气我自己，气我居然会自暴自弃
我气我自己，没有把握结果一无所有
我气我自己，没有勇气面对你说心里的话