Seal it up

I was going ever higher, but it wasnt enough, and now i've fallen, back down to level ground. There's another way in, i know it, but its too dark here i cant see, how do i drill my way through this.

What happened dear arsenal? the most horrid score line i see, reflects my day, reflects this period. its hard, so hard. i cant clap with one hand, but i'll try, at most i wont clap at all. and as ever before, no one would know, because im technically an introvert, seal it up within me, the seal of this curse would never be broken.

Metamorphosis. what is this hell im being put through. Tonight i will kill, tonight i wont sleep, for im a demon now. how is this ever going to be dispelled.

i cannot live, i cannot die, left me with life in hell